You are not lost. You are between worlds.
An 8-part initiatory journey with Ciel Grove
You are between worlds.
The life you knew has ended, or you can feel the call to end it, but what comes next has not yet revealed itself.
You wake at 3am with your heart racing with that particular knowing: the relationship is over. The career doesn't fit anymore, no matter how hard you try to squeeze yourself into that tiny, familiar box. Change is happening in your body and mind and being whether you want it or not.
The beliefs you built your life around have shown themselves to be both inadequate and suffocating. The person you were doesn't exist anymore, but the person you're becoming? She's still a mystery.
You're in the dark—and it's terrifying.
Everyone keeps telling you to "stay positive" or "just give it time" or "everything happens for a reason." But those platitudes don't help in the least, and in fact they make you feel more alone, more broken, and like you should be handling this better than you are.
But what if you're not broken?
What if this darkness—this disorienting space between who you were and who you're becoming—has something essential to teach you?
What if there's wisdom here that you can't access by rushing toward the light?
We have forgotten that transformation requires descent.
We've lost the cultural containers that once held people through liminal space—the vision quests, the initiation rituals, the community-witnessed rites of passage. We're expected to navigate profound spiritual and psychological transitions alone, without maps, without elders, without the understanding that dissolution must happen before reformation.
And so we suffer unnecessarily. We think something is wrong with us. We try to force clarity before its time. We rush through the very processes that need our presence and patience.
The Dark Night School was made for this.
Not to fix you or hurry you through your transition, but to offer something more valuable: education in the sacred territory of the void; a living, responsive map for the between-space, and companionship for the dark night. Practices and wisdom to help you work with the process rather than against it.
The Pathologized Dark
As humans, we have never really liked darkness. The darkness held danger and pain for our ancestors, and represented the unpredictable wildness of uncharted territory.
And yet, our relationship with darkness — with loss of control, the unknown, death, and the dissolution of identity — has had the most significant impact on our spiritual process of any distortion we carry.
From the act of pathologizing the experience of the descent (depression) to pathological positive thinking, we have cultivated a potent collective allergy to the most pivotal and essential experience an individual will ever go through: the dark night of the soul.
Without the transformative and initiatory processes to support us in alchemizing the darkness in our lives, we are cut off from the emergent process of our own spiritual rebirth, and from understanding our wholeness and place in reality.
Without these processes, collectively, we cannot evolve as a species.
With the right medicine, the journey through darkness becomes the doorway to spirit, and to our own becoming.
She who Sees in the Dark
The word Shaman, in some interpretations, means ‘she who sees in the dark’, as the training and experience of a practitioner afforded them the ability to see the path and appropriate next steps for each initiate when they themselves were unable to.
In the chaos of breakdown and a loss of light, having someone with eyes to see would make the difference between breakdown and breakthrough.
The intention of this program is to provide exactly that: your eyes in the dark.
Between Worlds: A Dark Night School is an 8-week audio program for navigating profound life transitions.
This is not therapy nor coaching. This is education—a curriculum for liminal space, drawn from wisdom traditions, depth psychology, and the ancient understanding that some knowledge can only be gained in the dark.
Here you will receive the context, support, empowerment, and wisdom necessary to alchemize this pivotal moment in your life, and to come to know yourself and the cosmos fully through it.
Over eight weeks, you'll receive:
→ 8 Core Teaching Episodes (approximately 1 hour each)
Deep, contemplative teachings on the stages of transformation—from entering the threshold to emerging on the other side. These aren't superficial self-help talks. They're sophisticated explorations of what actually happens in transition, why it's so hard, and how to navigate it with wisdom, traditional medicine and ceremonial practices, and intention.
→ 16 Guided Practices (2 per week, 15-25 minutes each)
Meditations, rituals, somatic practices, and exercises designed to help you embody the teachings. You won't just understand transformation intellectually—you'll practice it in your body, your breath, and your daily life.
→ A Comprehensive Workbook
With weekly journaling prompts, reflection questions, and integration exercises to deepen your experience and track your journey.
→ Weekly Delivery
Content arrives one week at a time — honoring the pacing that transformation actually requires. This structure supports you in staying present with each stage rather than racing ahead.
total cost
$97 USD
Drawing on the wisdom of ancestral practices alongside contemporary psychological wisdom, Between Worlds: A Dark Night School is your key to meeting your transitions, your dark nights and your soul, delivered in a format that is accessible and aligned to the modern seeker. Your soul self is calling you. The cosmos is calling you.
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The Modules
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True Medicine
An honest reckoning with how we cope — and what genuine refuge actually looks like. We explore catharsis and the practice of release, why letting go is so difficult, and how to begin replacing numbing and escape with medicine that actually supports transformation.
Descent
An orientation to the dark night — what it is, why it comes, and why it matters. We explore darkness as a feature of consciousness rather than a failure of it, and begin to understand these threshold moments as initiations calling us back to soul. This is where the journey begins.
Fertile Void
An exploration of emptiness across wisdom traditions — and why the void is not absence but possibility. We examine why stillness and not-knowing are so difficult for modern people, and begin practicing the radical act of simply being in the between.
Death as Ally
The hardest and most essential teaching: that some things must die for new life to emerge. We work with surrender and the limits of ego-based change, explore what is ours to do versus what must be released, and begin building a conscious relationship with mystery, fear, resentment, and guilt.
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Building Council
You were never meant to navigate this alone. We explore communitas — the ancient understanding of moving through transformation within a community of equals — and begin calling on the allied energies, elemental forces, and helping spirits available to support your passage.
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The Ground
As the old self releases, something is trying to return to you. This episode explores your responsibility for creating a welcome home for the parts of your soul seeking reintegration — through movement, creativity, beauty, humor, and the practice of ecstasis.
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The Ceremony
The heart of the program. A guided death rite — a sacred ceremonial practice drawn from shamanic tradition — for the conscious release of what can no longer live in you. This is not metaphor. This is medicine.
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Living Initiated
How to hold what was born in the ceremony as you return to ordinary life. We explore the inevitable pull of old patterns, how those around you will respond to your change, and how gratitude, blessing, and compassion become the practices that protect and sustain your new self.
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